Friday, April 10, 2009
dear you,
remember that day when you told me that ive stolen your heart and you took mine too, well i've given yours back. please give me mine.
i'm tired of crying, of trying hard to forget; because i can't. and i know that i should forget, that after what you've done you're just not worth it. all my friends says so. but i still can forgive. i don't know why. but i still can forgive.
you don't know how it feels to see you with someone else. i know that you're happy and i can't be any happier for you; but sometimes i wonder why you did leave me; just like that. you told my bestie that you were over her that you like me, and that's why i liked you. i didn't want to like you if you still like her, because you've been with her longer and i don't want to ruin things for you. but you told me that you've forgotten. you told me that you want to move on. you told me that even though first love is hard to forget, there's always second love. but then you leave me. you ignored me for so long and all i had left were pictures and that's even sadder because those pictures reminds me of when you were once alive.
i don't know why i still like you. we haven't talked in a long long time. maybe it's just those memories that keeps on haunting me making it hard for me to forget. maybe it's all those pictures i still have and still look at sometimes with tears. maybe it's how now when i look in the mirror i don't see the girl i was before. i see someone else. someone with a broken smile. someone who you broke. im still trying to find all the pieces and glue them back together but i need you. i still do. you told me that you'll be my friend, if not best friend. but that's not even true. you didn't make that true. you blocked me and deleted me. you wanted to make her happy because you love her and i really truly understand. but by making her happy, you're slowly killing me. and although its nice to see you happy, to see all those pictures of you and her on facebook, i am still dying slowly inside. i need you to tell me whats wrong. why you left me. i need you to still talk to me as a friend.
you don't know what it's like to read an email from her friend saying that you only played with me and that its best that i forget. you don't know how many nights i spent cryin over that and thinking whether what happened was actually real. deep down i still believe that you won't do that, and even after you did, i still forgive. i still forgive and i didn't ask what went wrong. remember how i didn't beg you to tell me what went wrong when you apologized? you had to tell me whats wrong, because you left me shattered alone for six months. but i didn't beg you to tell me. i didn't want to know. i love you too much to just be able to let it go.
you don't know what it feels like to have your heart broken over and over again. you took away my happiness away with you, and i tried to forget because i know that i don't need you to be happy. i tried to forget by not talking to you, by not talking to your friends. and i know that by not talking to you im also making it easier for you and her. this is what you want and that's what im doing, im doing what you want me to.
please don't say love when you don't mean it and please always catch someone when you make them fall.
please don't think that running away is the way out, because then you're leaving me in the dark. and you let me fall a thousand times where there's no one to pick me up except myself. you left me broken, alone. please understand that there is this girl who is slowly dying because of you. take off those rose colored glasses and for once see me once more. i know that you want to believe that im not there anymore, but by pretending not to see me, you're breaking me more, if that is at all possible.
please don't leave her. because i've tried so hard in letting you go, in letting you be with her. i'm broken, i'm shattered and i cry myself to sleep most nights all to see you happy with her. you don't know how much i've done to try to forget and even though i can't your happiness makes it all better and i only want you to be happy. if she makes you happy, please stay with her. please always love her, just like the way she loves you. :)
i am tired of crying. but i know that the only way i can get my happiness back and have all the broken pieces glued back together is if you come back. i know that i might not get the you before, but please don't pretend that i don't exist.
you told me once to imagine myself in your shoes, now please imagine yourself in mine.
love,
me
2. forgiving is always the best way out. even when it doesn't seem right.
remember that day when you told me that ive stolen your heart and you took mine too, well i've given yours back. please give me mine.
i'm tired of crying, of trying hard to forget; because i can't. and i know that i should forget, that after what you've done you're just not worth it. all my friends says so. but i still can forgive. i don't know why. but i still can forgive.
you don't know how it feels to see you with someone else. i know that you're happy and i can't be any happier for you; but sometimes i wonder why you did leave me; just like that. you told my bestie that you were over her that you like me, and that's why i liked you. i didn't want to like you if you still like her, because you've been with her longer and i don't want to ruin things for you. but you told me that you've forgotten. you told me that you want to move on. you told me that even though first love is hard to forget, there's always second love. but then you leave me. you ignored me for so long and all i had left were pictures and that's even sadder because those pictures reminds me of when you were once alive.
i don't know why i still like you. we haven't talked in a long long time. maybe it's just those memories that keeps on haunting me making it hard for me to forget. maybe it's all those pictures i still have and still look at sometimes with tears. maybe it's how now when i look in the mirror i don't see the girl i was before. i see someone else. someone with a broken smile. someone who you broke. im still trying to find all the pieces and glue them back together but i need you. i still do. you told me that you'll be my friend, if not best friend. but that's not even true. you didn't make that true. you blocked me and deleted me. you wanted to make her happy because you love her and i really truly understand. but by making her happy, you're slowly killing me. and although its nice to see you happy, to see all those pictures of you and her on facebook, i am still dying slowly inside. i need you to tell me whats wrong. why you left me. i need you to still talk to me as a friend.
you don't know what it's like to read an email from her friend saying that you only played with me and that its best that i forget. you don't know how many nights i spent cryin over that and thinking whether what happened was actually real. deep down i still believe that you won't do that, and even after you did, i still forgive. i still forgive and i didn't ask what went wrong. remember how i didn't beg you to tell me what went wrong when you apologized? you had to tell me whats wrong, because you left me shattered alone for six months. but i didn't beg you to tell me. i didn't want to know. i love you too much to just be able to let it go.
you don't know what it feels like to have your heart broken over and over again. you took away my happiness away with you, and i tried to forget because i know that i don't need you to be happy. i tried to forget by not talking to you, by not talking to your friends. and i know that by not talking to you im also making it easier for you and her. this is what you want and that's what im doing, im doing what you want me to.
please don't say love when you don't mean it and please always catch someone when you make them fall.
please don't think that running away is the way out, because then you're leaving me in the dark. and you let me fall a thousand times where there's no one to pick me up except myself. you left me broken, alone. please understand that there is this girl who is slowly dying because of you. take off those rose colored glasses and for once see me once more. i know that you want to believe that im not there anymore, but by pretending not to see me, you're breaking me more, if that is at all possible.
please don't leave her. because i've tried so hard in letting you go, in letting you be with her. i'm broken, i'm shattered and i cry myself to sleep most nights all to see you happy with her. you don't know how much i've done to try to forget and even though i can't your happiness makes it all better and i only want you to be happy. if she makes you happy, please stay with her. please always love her, just like the way she loves you. :)
i am tired of crying. but i know that the only way i can get my happiness back and have all the broken pieces glued back together is if you come back. i know that i might not get the you before, but please don't pretend that i don't exist.
you told me once to imagine myself in your shoes, now please imagine yourself in mine.
love,
me
2. forgiving is always the best way out. even when it doesn't seem right.
i love you most ardently, 11:05 PM.
