Sunday, January 24, 2010
what claudia wants
in my life, i have always asked the question,
what do you want?
regardless of the fact that most of the times,
my heart wants something else
and truth be told,
i like giving, more than receiving,
but sometimes,
i wish the world would for once listen to what claudia truly wants.
the list does not go in chronological order, it goes in any order.
1. to find a way to thank my irreplaceable best friends for being there for me through thin and thick. for patience when i go through the toughest heart breaks, i don't think i can ever thank all of you enough but someday i might find away.
2. to get a 41 on my ib score, yes i think it is literally impossible to get a perfect score in biology, hence the 41.
3. to stop drinking panadols when things starts falling apart
4. to wake up smiling, knowing that someone out there loves me
5. to go to haiti and build houses for the 62000 homeless, and take part in the magical touch of aid, though my fairy dust may be rather faint.
6. to have a kick ass time at the boys like girls concert tomorrow with my best friends
7. to always be honest with myself and everyone around me.
8. to not always hold feelings in, because there is a limit to secrets and lies. the truth is inevitable.
9. to get sunflowers and pink daisies on valentines day. to for once, know that someone cares the world about me, and would do anything for me.
10. to have one of those nights where i read books like there's no tomorrow
11. to rewind time back to kindergarten, when tears were only products of broken crayons and tiny bruises from falling down in the playground.
12. to find the perfect words to tell you how much i love you, how every time i say i love you more, it is for a fact, we can see this now.
13. to thank my family for practically everything
14. to thank john for understanding and advices, though most of them are sealed tightly within bitter swear words and dark witty humor
15. to stop being so selfish and just let go, the way you want me to. and make it seem like i never existed.
16. to thank you for how much you've made me happy, how you made me forget about him, and the dark past, how though you were merely a transient euphoric hiatus, you brought magic that lasts forever.
17. to find away to stop loving you, a little bit too much
i love you most ardently, 9:07 PM.
