Saturday, July 3, 2010
don't you get it
someday i'll figure out how to win in this game,
even if it means losing four times consequently.
someday i'll understand why i deserved all this,
it's the well deserved karma that has continuously been adding up,
to which i can only respond to by saying,
karma really is a bitch.
but without it, how will i ever learn?
don't you get it?
i've had enough.
the impermanence of beautiful,
the transiency of perfection,
you've taught me a lot about contradictions,
and the amount of strength one person can ever have to pick up and keep going
don't you get it?
that i understand the way you think,
why we live in spine tingling silence,
why i keep everything to myself,
though it slowly kills me,
why you're pretending that everything's okay,
because the chances of us meeting is 1/13 560 798
too beautifully absurd
that you made it your escape
someday i'll figure out why i remembered you today,
even after realizing that happiness is found in being happy
without the things i don't and should not have.
maybe i remembered you because
like the contradiction you are,
you're not something i shouldn't have,
but rather,
inexorably and irrevocably,
should have.
i love you most ardently, 12:12 AM.
