Tuesday, January 11, 2011
enough
when i saw you outside my car window,
i felt nothing,
for the first time in the last six months,
it was easy for me to not feel anything,
which is strange considering that this time, last year
you were everything to me.
what i did feel was the fleeting twang of memory,
how probably this time last year, you were walking to your class,
holding your phone while texting me good morning to wake me up.
i realized that i no longer miss those text messages,
or you for that matter,
but i just remember them, and i'm beginning to remember things
in the absence of hurt.
i am grateful for acceptance, and time.
lately, i have been thinking about a lot of things.
i have this uncanny feeling about the future,
and although i try to think about it less, and less,
you make me realize that i have to think about it more and more.
i place myself relative to you
only to discover a transcendental contentment.
people search their whole lives to find a place to belong,
i think i've found mine.
but you give me no answers,
and like the coming hours and days,
i dislike uncertainties.
i've had enough,
i just want all this to end.
i love you most ardently, 8:16 PM.
